I think about her a lot. If I am honest, and if she desires it, I want our child to have a relationship with and for us to do the same. My heavenly babies did not leave my arms willingly, and here she is, allowing someone else to love and raise her child. I pray for our relationship. I pray God gives us a relationship. I pray our child knows her, knows what she gave him or her at great cost to herself. I pray, if she is out there, that something about our profile holds her, gives her peace and allows us to be her childâs adoptive parent. And if not, for the other birth mothers, whatever they chose, I pray there is peace there. Itâs hard to come by and even harder to keep, but us adoptive and âhopeful,â adoptive moms are eternally grateful for you.