Waiting for baby

My sister gave birth today to a lovely baby girl; and we have a baby shower for my brother’s wife next weekend who is expecting her first. A new cousin for Isaac. When we told him and showed the picture, he asked where his new baby was. We’ve put up a few things in the nursery to be ready just in case, and to help onboard Isaac to the idea of being an older brother. It is these times that my heart sends up prayers: 1) that I’m so grateful for that beautiful little face of my son, his innocent curiousity and his questions that come from connecting the dots. how preceptive he is!  and 2) for the birthmom and future baby that will make us a family of four.  My heart swelled to the point of too much excitment and aching all at the same time thinking about that moment when a parent welcomes another life into theirs and how difficult it is to wait sometimes, putting your trust into the master plan that it will all happen as it should.

The spring of intense emotion actually caught me offguard. There were lots of ups and downs with our fertility journey, but upon adoption of our first son Isaac, it was pure joy from the start, and those difficult moments all but a memory retreated with the new focus in our lives. Isaac has kept us busy while we’ve been waiting and i haven’t had to dwell on the more difficult parts of the waiting since we got back on the list. But seeing the picture of the new little baby brought it all front and center as i reflected at how much love there is that my husband and I have to give, and the hope we have for our family’s future. 

In these blogs I’ve tried to give a glimpse of what we are like as parents more or less. Today has been more reflective. This journey is so unique and rewarding. My heart goes out to all the adoptive parents waiting or otherwise and to the birthmoms/parents as well. I see you.